the space between

today, as it stands infront of me what is it my eyes really want to see? what do my ears really want to hear ? what is it my heart really wants to feel? to all these questions i have no answer what is that one wish i really want to conquer? yesterday, as it went past in a blink of an eye what was it that i really wanted to achieve ? what was wrong that i wanted to make right ? what did i become ? what i wanted to be ? to all that was brought and all the other what is that one wish i really want to conquer? standing still, too scared to scroll down the pages of tomorrow as they will unfold infront of me one step of courage or a step full of conviction what do i fear? and what truth convinces me ? as much as i try to get near me , i go farther what is that one need i fulfill? lord!! my father !!! moments swish by like flashes of lightning while i am left wondering where do i fit in ? hope floats on the surface of the ocean i strive hard to reach it and it sinks ...

bright stars up there in the sky always make me wonder who am i ? an insignificant piece in the scheme of things part of the larger game being played within amongst the paradox was i so necessary? i am yet unable to decipher why am i? in fury an aimless body wandering in solitude searching for answers without and within every new experience convinces me amongst these pre- conceived stories  i am an aberration an isolated piece not part of the puzzle a violent, uncertain wind gushes in to meddle while everyone here serves some purpose why this unwanted creation suffers? as a witness to all things inert and moving who am i ? so separate from all of us ? in this mix of men and women Am i the only one ? an aberration 

Let me breathe, let it sink in Demons of the past or unpredictability of the future when all I do is live in the present then what brings it out the fear within all is one and one is all the incarnations of the mind or the reality of the soul constant perseverance to stop me from thinking it still creates doubts the fear within with nothing to achieve and nothing to conquer the love of the body or the energy of the master seclusion was the only way to win the unwarranted lies of the fear within love for all and all for love knowledge of the unseen and truth of existence when all I strive for is the eventual reunion then why am I lost in this fear within  

Once the supreme suddenly realized Its too lonely being the only life Let me think of the land, water, fire and air And bring forth creation and the atmosphere Then it thought why is it just me ? Let me assume the “you” and the “we” All these divisions , and these diversifications Made the original “ ME” submerge into oblivion Who would believe? That an act of intelligence Will render chaos, Confusion and obstruction Now who cares what happens to the “you” and the “we” All that matters is the “mine” and the “me” . The law of survival had three essentials Water, food and air that we breathe Creator created all in abundance And land to walk on was available free What can I call my own? What should I leave ? Tell me what belongs to you and what belongs to me ? With millions starving, how can it suffice? Ignoring their misery, all of “us” We feed What piece of land I build as my home? With thousand homeless and sleeping on ...

Nothing in this world seems real Nothing in this world interests me what can I do with my own will every moment I am alive seems like an eternity where was I headed and where have I been led cant find no happiness and nothing makes me sad When will I be dead ? Oh Lord ! whats the point of this creation ? On top of that you created me All is divided in terms of color, into nations Where is your abode , I could never see Every moment in this world seems like an eternity What should I want and what is it that I need ? I thought with my heart , could never think with my head When will I be dead ? Whats in store tomorrow ? and what occurred in the past ? where can it take me ? what should I achieve that lasts with every smile and with every tear down my eyes My body reacts or someone cries inside of me I am not sure of who I am , whats my identity ? Every moment in this world seems like an eternity Am I plain ignorant? or am I just too well read god ! how l...

i am all alone, in this world all by myself, fighting to survive noone knows what i have been through noone even tries why?? i smile,with tears beneath my eyes but if only i could cry you left me, with nothing to hold onto and i gave up on all things that brought me this far all alone ,trying to bring out the best in me they say what a nice guy why?? i smile, with tears beneath my eyes but if only i could cry i dont know where i am going dont know where you are gone alone, i get up everyday and alone i sleep at night noone's by my side why?? i smile, with tears beneath my eyes but if only i could cry its me and your love that i behold there is nothing else that i can feel its alone i have lived its alone that i would die why? i smile with tears beneath my eyes but if only i could cry

aah what an interesting story from where i started and where i have reached among the smiles, among the laughter in the sadness of love i was after through the ravines of changes me meandered till the end to win? free falling to the ground, god ! what a crafter in the sadness of love i was after the lovely green pastures elude desert of emptiness within flowing through the river of life like a rafter in the sadness of love i was after on the twin sides of past and the future lie the domains of the rights and the wrongs stuck in the present of the promise i asked her in the sadness of love i was after from the warmth of the lamp by me she vanished out of the horizon one day by this cliche called time i lost her in the sadness of love i was after in the arms of another i found her in the sadness of love i was after by the wish of the merciful master all i have left is memories in the sadness of love i was after