the space between

today, as it stands infront of me what is it my eyes really want to see? what do my ears really want to hear ? what is it my heart really wants to feel? to all these questions i have no answer what is that one wish i really want to conquer? yesterday, as it went past in a blink of an eye what was it that i really wanted to achieve ? what was wrong that i wanted to make right ? what did i become ? what i wanted to be ? to all that was brought and all the other what is that one wish i really want to conquer? standing still, too scared to scroll down the pages of tomorrow as they will unfold infront of me one step of courage or a step full of conviction what do i fear? and what truth convinces me ? as much as i try to get near me , i go farther what is that one need i fulfill? lord!! my father !!! moments swish by like flashes of lightning while i am left wondering where do i fit in ? hope floats on the surface of the ocean i strive hard to reach it and it sinks

bright stars up there in the sky always make me wonder who am i ? an insignificant piece in the scheme of things part of the larger game being played within amongst the paradox was i so necessary? i am yet unable to decipher why am i? in fury an aimless body wandering in solitude searching for answers without and within every new experience convinces me amongst these pre- conceived stories  i am an aberration an isolated piece not part of the puzzle a violent, uncertain wind gushes in to meddle while everyone here serves some purpose why this unwanted creation suffers? as a witness to all things inert and moving who am i ? so separate from all of us ? in this mix of men and women Am i the only one ? an aberration 

Let me breathe, let it sink in Demons of the past or unpredictability of the future when all I do is live in the present then what brings it out the fear within all is one and one is all the incarnations of the mind or the reality of the soul constant perseverance to stop me from thinking it still creates doubts the fear within with nothing to achieve and nothing to conquer the love of the body or the energy of the master seclusion was the only way to win the unwarranted lies of the fear within love for all and all for love knowledge of the unseen and truth of existence when all I strive for is the eventual reunion then why am I lost in this fear within