the space between

i am all alone, in this world all by myself, fighting to survive noone knows what i have been through noone even tries why?? i smile,with tears beneath my eyes but if only i could cry you left me, with nothing to hold onto and i gave up on all things that brought me this far all alone ,trying to bring out the best in me they say what a nice guy why?? i smile, with tears beneath my eyes but if only i could cry i dont know where i am going dont know where you are gone alone, i get up everyday and alone i sleep at night noone's by my side why?? i smile, with tears beneath my eyes but if only i could cry its me and your love that i behold there is nothing else that i can feel its alone i have lived its alone that i would die why? i smile with tears beneath my eyes but if only i could cry

aah what an interesting story from where i started and where i have reached among the smiles, among the laughter in the sadness of love i was after through the ravines of changes me meandered till the end to win? free falling to the ground, god ! what a crafter in the sadness of love i was after the lovely green pastures elude desert of emptiness within flowing through the river of life like a rafter in the sadness of love i was after on the twin sides of past and the future lie the domains of the rights and the wrongs stuck in the present of the promise i asked her in the sadness of love i was after from the warmth of the lamp by me she vanished out of the horizon one day by this cliche called time i lost her in the sadness of love i was after in the arms of another i found her in the sadness of love i was after by the wish of the merciful master all i have left is memories in the sadness of love i was after 

love is a curse that stops time and never lets you forget your past time is a notion, helps you console that everything will pass past is a vengeful enemy , that makes you regret who you are while future is the devil, you wish, to see, you wouldnt last death is the hard to achieve fantasy, you assume will bring everything to end god is the faith to perceive losses as more of wins you are the mystery , i have still failed to unlock i am the river, that just keeps on flowing on a lost, lonely path we are the two ends of an everlasting road, between us a distance that there is ever will the road bend to make the two ends meet ? such thoughts have no beginning, nor i know where they will end intelligence borrowed, body assumed, life conceived . to whom do these thoughts belong and what truth should i believe what you should i look for ? what else should i let go ? these thoughts alone constitute bondage, while i was forever free there was never me, there is no me !!!...

another day has passed, with me still feeling lost where am i headed? what should i do ? what should i achieve ? who should i go to? another night so vast, with my thoughts running fast why did i change? to be what i have become where did i go wrong , that changed your point of view another time in the past, a few years have elapsed why did i believe? in every thought you knew nobody wants me , Darling, where are you ? another dream that didn't last, my memory has collapsed struggling to begin the race, i used to lead Now, what would i want ? when i don't know what i need what more do i say ? word's left very few  My life's come to an end, while you start something new ...

deep within my soul there is nothing but the two of us, together , forever Deep within my soul i can see the hills, by the river, yellow daisies scenting the horizon when i hold your hand to kiss, you envelope my arms as you close your eyes there is no fear, no insecurity of separation Nothing else but the two of us deep within my soul together forever the land with its people and scarcity time and existence and diversity becomes no more a part of me when i look deep inside, i find just the two of us within ,  with the sun shining upon us there is nothing in between , The sun sets, moon light shines upon you, all i can see is every bit of  your skin as it holds me , time has stopped, existence derailed , the shadows disappear and everything comes to an end . in this picture of us together, forever deep within my soul 

As i wake up to another day , As i sit up and breathe again All the time, i have been alone in bed, all the time, you have been gone away i have been trying to learn , all the things you asked me to, and every moment i get closer so you know the truth is i miss you so !!! As i walk past those roads again where i stumbled, and you held me, as i do all the things we did watching the sun set and getting wet in the rain i have been trying to walk alone, the roads you wanted to and every time i don't know where to go the truth is i miss you so As i smile to what is said thinking of the way you would say to me when they ask me why i am alone yet? i just smile, saying, god will bring it back to me but when i retire alone in bed with tears down my eyes, wondering when you will hold me As i ponder, where you are? Imagining you next to me, with your hand through my hair I have been trying to feel alive, though i know i am just dead i shouldn't have let you ...

Where do i go from here? where would i end? No matter how fast i run, i will come back to from where i begin How do i do whats right ? what is his plan ? No matter what i believe, what seemed right then is now a sin. What do i seek from life ? what would i earn ? No matter what i gain , death consumes, all that's left is within So let me be by your side To bring this all to end No matter i live or i die, its only you that i want There is no fear, there is no time to which i will succumb i may live or i may die, its only you that i want So when i die, for the love that was mine i will be born again and again to see if love can win my love can win let me be by your side.. Love is all there is within...