the space between

blue skies cover the horizon as divine sunlight touches the wind the languid sound of water running as a green blanket envelopes the hill i stare at every phenomenon wondering am i a part of this or this a part of me? yet, fascinated by this spectacle of creation by the creator who also created me snow glistens on top of that mountain with the sun shining on top of me birds singing to their different tunes now in one place then another tree i gaze at every splendor wondering i am as much a part of this as this is of me what power can imagine such vividity the thought of the creator who created this and created me every thing seems so much in place every picture seems so perfect every creation serves its purpose as every thought assumes a reason while i am thinking through these thoughts of wisdom how was I thought and so was this all along i was sitting still..

do they all go through what i am going through everyday do they all see , all these different shades all beneath one single tree is this all for real cos it seems like a movie Again it makes me smile when it should make me cry i ask god.. why me why ?? all that happens need not have an explanation stranger things have happened, stranger people have arrived i am a simple man, i have a simple mind not once, not twice, it happens every time i try god !!! why me why ?? what do you want to prove?, where do you want to take me ? i have never interfered , forget intervene.. its alone i have lived, i have wanted to be free no more i can feel.. why am i still alive?? when will i die ?? God !! why me why ??

today, as it stands infront of me what is it my eyes really want to see? what do my ears really want to hear ? what is it my heart really wants to feel? to all these questions i have no answer what is that one wish i really want to conquer? yesterday, as it went past in a blink of an eye what was it that i really wanted to achieve ? what was wrong that i wanted to make right ? what did i become ? what i wanted to be ? to all that was brought and all the other what is that one wish i really want to conquer? standing still, too scared to scroll down the pages of tomorrow as they will unfold infront of me one step of courage or a step full of conviction what do i fear? and what truth convinces me ? as much as i try to get near me , i go farther what is that one need i fulfill? lord!! my father !!! moments swish by like flashes of lightning while i am left wondering where do i fit in ? hope floats on the surface of the ocean i strive hard to reach it and it sinks ...

bright stars up there in the sky always make me wonder who am i ? an insignificant piece in the scheme of things part of the larger game being played within amongst the paradox was i so necessary? i am yet unable to decipher why am i? in fury an aimless body wandering in solitude searching for answers without and within every new experience convinces me amongst these pre- conceived stories  i am an aberration an isolated piece not part of the puzzle a violent, uncertain wind gushes in to meddle while everyone here serves some purpose why this unwanted creation suffers? as a witness to all things inert and moving who am i ? so separate from all of us ? in this mix of men and women Am i the only one ? an aberration 

Let me breathe, let it sink in Demons of the past or unpredictability of the future when all I do is live in the present then what brings it out the fear within all is one and one is all the incarnations of the mind or the reality of the soul constant perseverance to stop me from thinking it still creates doubts the fear within with nothing to achieve and nothing to conquer the love of the body or the energy of the master seclusion was the only way to win the unwarranted lies of the fear within love for all and all for love knowledge of the unseen and truth of existence when all I strive for is the eventual reunion then why am I lost in this fear within  

Once the supreme suddenly realized Its too lonely being the only life Let me think of the land, water, fire and air And bring forth creation and the atmosphere Then it thought why is it just me ? Let me assume the “you” and the “we” All these divisions , and these diversifications Made the original “ ME” submerge into oblivion Who would believe? That an act of intelligence Will render chaos, Confusion and obstruction Now who cares what happens to the “you” and the “we” All that matters is the “mine” and the “me” . The law of survival had three essentials Water, food and air that we breathe Creator created all in abundance And land to walk on was available free What can I call my own? What should I leave ? Tell me what belongs to you and what belongs to me ? With millions starving, how can it suffice? Ignoring their misery, all of “us” We feed What piece of land I build as my home? With thousand homeless and sleeping on ...

Nothing in this world seems real Nothing in this world interests me what can I do with my own will every moment I am alive seems like an eternity where was I headed and where have I been led cant find no happiness and nothing makes me sad When will I be dead ? Oh Lord ! whats the point of this creation ? On top of that you created me All is divided in terms of color, into nations Where is your abode , I could never see Every moment in this world seems like an eternity What should I want and what is it that I need ? I thought with my heart , could never think with my head When will I be dead ? Whats in store tomorrow ? and what occurred in the past ? where can it take me ? what should I achieve that lasts with every smile and with every tear down my eyes My body reacts or someone cries inside of me I am not sure of who I am , whats my identity ? Every moment in this world seems like an eternity Am I plain ignorant? or am I just too well read god ! how l...