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 Was it the way she was moving or was it just her smile  , looking at her was magic , sending shivers down my spine  everytime i was falling and this lifted me up so high  darling , would you even care to cross eyes  i have been dreaming , been searching all this time  believing , its not possible to again feel the sign  but in my solitude i saw you lighting up my nights  darling , would you cross over to my side  its been long and grinding , the years have just flown by  to have the courage to own up to what i feel inside  i have just let go , even before a sincere try  but darling , this time , i want to make it work out right  will it be rewarding , traveling across from a different shore  to keep looking at you was all i could do .  i dont know how hard you fall , as i have never reached this high   i love you and i dont know why you dont love me , why ?

Moment I cant get out of !   I sensed the touch from the look in her eye I felt the pain from the pause in her smile Two hearts conjoined in the aura of her smell The unspoken words I knew she could hear I believe, But her lips are sealed, I am stuck in a moment I cant get out of Time stands still in this moment that I cant get out of Constant quarrel amongst the heart and the mind  While The soul within deciphered all the signs Two hearts enjoined to hold on forever The unforgettable truth , I knew she waited for I believed, but her lips are sealed , stuck in a moment I cant get out of Time stands still in this moment i cant get out of !   But in our moment I can catch hold of time And make this moment live forever Moment , we are all moments in time, And her lips are sealed in this moment I cant get out of 

Through the shade i can see you, through the pain i can feel you ! Through trust i believe you, through words i understand you , through the heart i beseech you ! Through memories i miss you , no, i cant see you but through love i will hold you ! Through me i will become you ! Darling ! you are not with me but i am with you !

I am an eternal kid I don’t know whats right or wrong What to let go , to what to hold on What to do, in this world of given what to express and what to hide cant keep my emotions in a lid I am an eternal kid I don’t understand what you mean I just believe what is seen In every word you will say I believe As life is based on truth and honesty Cant decipher what you hid I am an eternal kid I like the stars and the sun The freedom they portray is what I want I like the hills and the rivers Natural beauty Is what I crave for I like to be senseless in all that makes sense Love Is instilled in everything that I did I am an eternal kid Smile encompasses my aura with innocence in the mid I am an eternal kid

Solitude is Bliss !! Born alone into the womb of a mother, Away from friends, family and the mix The world full of its diversifications Never knew all of it exists A convergence of flesh, hair and bones, I could have given a miss Solitude is bliss !! A chapter of nomenclature and belonging In a world of myriad beings A lecture on the do’s and the don’t’s With the seen and the unseen Mind put through constant learning with conditioning in the mix Solitude is bliss !! Building connections on the way with the various manifestations you meet alone one is lonely togetherness is what we should seek understanding diversity and their confusions makes me sick solitude is bliss !! Running towards the aspirations The desires I need to fulfill An array of emotions, of love With the one, to make me complete But nothing lasts forever, burnt to ashes is my every wish Solitude is bliss !! Ignorant in the womb, of existence Indifferent under the wh...

hindu maare muslim ko, muslim maare hindu ko, marta to insaan hi , mara to bhagwan hi, bhagwan ko jalake to ussey kis murti mein dhunde , allah ko dafnake , to kis jaanat mein pahuncha , saare roop ek hain ,ek ke hi anek pratibimb hain , sabka dharma ek hai , pyaar hi dharma ki nishani hai !

Voices coming from inside of me Visions of you, of you and me The touch of your hand as it holds on to mine Is it just a thought ? or is it a sign? throbbing pain of hope, silent echoes of crying an endless mirage of wishes, a futile hope of trying a sudden demise of love, in this broken heart of mine thoughts that seem to stay on forever memories of you, of you and me the touch of your lips as they kiss mine is it a dream or is it a sign ? despair of belief, silent screams of misery insinuation of wishes, surrender to trying unpleasant demise of love in this broken heart of mine dying laughter, incineration of hope, vehement pain for eternal time obliteration of love in this broken heart of mine 

Suddenly the heart starts to beat faster, And the pulse is racing on My mind is non existent Instincts take over And take me back to where I came from I thought I knew it all I knew I was really strong Time heals everything Distance creates space Then why is it so hard to move on? Mind controls feelings Feelings control a man Man builds connections and at will breaks the bond while the mind has set free, to what is the soul holding on? is this a strange connect ? is this a mystery ? will it forever hold on to me or would it ever set me free ? I don’t why it started, I don’t know when it will end How hard will we try to break this connection that was heaven sent ?

                                             AS I LAY DYING As I lay dying      Looking for those last words to speak , And that special hand to hold As I lay dying Is there a spectacle to behold of all that I ignored As I lay dying  hearing the last words Of their  wisdom,  is there still something I could know? As I lay dying Breathing hard to breathe again Believing I still can make a difference As I lay dying Trying hard to walk again Forgiving life that gave me so much pain As I lay dying Still, motionless, with my eyes closed In anguish , I plead with my soul As I lay dying Thoughts flash across my brain, My entire life just passed through in a matter of few seconds Some people entered, so many people left The story, whose chapters I just read But those moments were so much longer ...

that empty feeling in the stomach when you dont know what you should or shouldnt do ? there is so much you want to say, but who to say to everything you thought you knew of what is false and what is true i thought it was a part of me, but i know its you i fell into all that went before was forgotten in an instant or so i thought as i still carry the pain i want to rip out my eyes and hide under the table i am still vulnerable never ending thoughts of the why and the why nots did she just touch me or she wanted to hold on is she really there or has she moved on do i have to say the words of what is true i thought it wasnt just me , but it was also you we fell into what i used to be , i am not the same i ran, i ran, but i still carry the pain i want to run away far from all the people is this me? i am still vulnerable memories of what is and what could have been she didnt even say , she didnt even tell me ? it was just another kiss, or did she really feel me ? i...

standing still right on the edge one step further or a retreat is the thin line between life and death the colossal mountains, with numerous streams merging into the rampant river flowing in between as different experiences form a story, and these countless stories  become a dream a dream lived and a dream unheard of what is perceived and what is seen is the thin line between real and believed the rising sun, brightens the horizon as dark clouds envelope the vision what has happened and what is revealed every conclusion takes two different means i accomplished or i didnt take the test the thin line between failure and success walking along a long winding road top of the hill , on the snow an ignorant move and there i see you go i reach out with my hand to bring you back once more how you held her and how she holds you now is the thin line between love and sex the magnificent meadows, the splendid terrain the snow covered mountains, the beautiful rain yo...

blue skies cover the horizon as divine sunlight touches the wind the languid sound of water running as a green blanket envelopes the hill i stare at every phenomenon wondering am i a part of this or this a part of me? yet, fascinated by this spectacle of creation by the creator who also created me snow glistens on top of that mountain with the sun shining on top of me birds singing to their different tunes now in one place then another tree i gaze at every splendor wondering i am as much a part of this as this is of me what power can imagine such vividity the thought of the creator who created this and created me every thing seems so much in place every picture seems so perfect every creation serves its purpose as every thought assumes a reason while i am thinking through these thoughts of wisdom how was I thought and so was this all along i was sitting still..

do they all go through what i am going through everyday do they all see , all these different shades all beneath one single tree is this all for real cos it seems like a movie Again it makes me smile when it should make me cry i ask god.. why me why ?? all that happens need not have an explanation stranger things have happened, stranger people have arrived i am a simple man, i have a simple mind not once, not twice, it happens every time i try god !!! why me why ?? what do you want to prove?, where do you want to take me ? i have never interfered , forget intervene.. its alone i have lived, i have wanted to be free no more i can feel.. why am i still alive?? when will i die ?? God !! why me why ??

today, as it stands infront of me what is it my eyes really want to see? what do my ears really want to hear ? what is it my heart really wants to feel? to all these questions i have no answer what is that one wish i really want to conquer? yesterday, as it went past in a blink of an eye what was it that i really wanted to achieve ? what was wrong that i wanted to make right ? what did i become ? what i wanted to be ? to all that was brought and all the other what is that one wish i really want to conquer? standing still, too scared to scroll down the pages of tomorrow as they will unfold infront of me one step of courage or a step full of conviction what do i fear? and what truth convinces me ? as much as i try to get near me , i go farther what is that one need i fulfill? lord!! my father !!! moments swish by like flashes of lightning while i am left wondering where do i fit in ? hope floats on the surface of the ocean i strive hard to reach it and it sinks ...

bright stars up there in the sky always make me wonder who am i ? an insignificant piece in the scheme of things part of the larger game being played within amongst the paradox was i so necessary? i am yet unable to decipher why am i? in fury an aimless body wandering in solitude searching for answers without and within every new experience convinces me amongst these pre- conceived stories  i am an aberration an isolated piece not part of the puzzle a violent, uncertain wind gushes in to meddle while everyone here serves some purpose why this unwanted creation suffers? as a witness to all things inert and moving who am i ? so separate from all of us ? in this mix of men and women Am i the only one ? an aberration 

Let me breathe, let it sink in Demons of the past or unpredictability of the future when all I do is live in the present then what brings it out the fear within all is one and one is all the incarnations of the mind or the reality of the soul constant perseverance to stop me from thinking it still creates doubts the fear within with nothing to achieve and nothing to conquer the love of the body or the energy of the master seclusion was the only way to win the unwarranted lies of the fear within love for all and all for love knowledge of the unseen and truth of existence when all I strive for is the eventual reunion then why am I lost in this fear within  

Once the supreme suddenly realized Its too lonely being the only life Let me think of the land, water, fire and air And bring forth creation and the atmosphere Then it thought why is it just me ? Let me assume the “you” and the “we” All these divisions , and these diversifications Made the original “ ME” submerge into oblivion Who would believe? That an act of intelligence Will render chaos, Confusion and obstruction Now who cares what happens to the “you” and the “we” All that matters is the “mine” and the “me” . The law of survival had three essentials Water, food and air that we breathe Creator created all in abundance And land to walk on was available free What can I call my own? What should I leave ? Tell me what belongs to you and what belongs to me ? With millions starving, how can it suffice? Ignoring their misery, all of “us” We feed What piece of land I build as my home? With thousand homeless and sleeping on ...

Nothing in this world seems real Nothing in this world interests me what can I do with my own will every moment I am alive seems like an eternity where was I headed and where have I been led cant find no happiness and nothing makes me sad When will I be dead ? Oh Lord ! whats the point of this creation ? On top of that you created me All is divided in terms of color, into nations Where is your abode , I could never see Every moment in this world seems like an eternity What should I want and what is it that I need ? I thought with my heart , could never think with my head When will I be dead ? Whats in store tomorrow ? and what occurred in the past ? where can it take me ? what should I achieve that lasts with every smile and with every tear down my eyes My body reacts or someone cries inside of me I am not sure of who I am , whats my identity ? Every moment in this world seems like an eternity Am I plain ignorant? or am I just too well read god ! how l...

i am all alone, in this world all by myself, fighting to survive noone knows what i have been through noone even tries why?? i smile,with tears beneath my eyes but if only i could cry you left me, with nothing to hold onto and i gave up on all things that brought me this far all alone ,trying to bring out the best in me they say what a nice guy why?? i smile, with tears beneath my eyes but if only i could cry i dont know where i am going dont know where you are gone alone, i get up everyday and alone i sleep at night noone's by my side why?? i smile, with tears beneath my eyes but if only i could cry its me and your love that i behold there is nothing else that i can feel its alone i have lived its alone that i would die why? i smile with tears beneath my eyes but if only i could cry

aah what an interesting story from where i started and where i have reached among the smiles, among the laughter in the sadness of love i was after through the ravines of changes me meandered till the end to win? free falling to the ground, god ! what a crafter in the sadness of love i was after the lovely green pastures elude desert of emptiness within flowing through the river of life like a rafter in the sadness of love i was after on the twin sides of past and the future lie the domains of the rights and the wrongs stuck in the present of the promise i asked her in the sadness of love i was after from the warmth of the lamp by me she vanished out of the horizon one day by this cliche called time i lost her in the sadness of love i was after in the arms of another i found her in the sadness of love i was after by the wish of the merciful master all i have left is memories in the sadness of love i was after